We were a small family. Just my four year old brother, Parka, my twelve year old sister, Terra, and me, Odus. I was the oldest, and because our mother was often ill and sleeping, I tended to the family's needs. Being eighteen, I was easily able to apply myself to a low-wage job that could keep us fed. When I was six, and my mother, radiant and beautiful, was pregnant with Terra, my father left without notice. We didn't know where he went, because he left without saying goodbye or leaving a note. When I'm trying to get my sister to be brave, I tell her to not let herself become our father; cowardly and disloyal.
But we've moved on plenty
We were a small family. Just my four year old brother, Parka, my twelve year old sister, Terra, and me, Odus. I was the oldest, and because our mother was often ill and sleeping, I tended to the family's needs. Being eighteen, I was easily able to apply myself to a low-wage job that could keep us fed. When I was six, and my mother, radiant and beautiful, was pregnant with Terra, my father left without notice. We didn't know where he went, because he left without saying goodbye or leaving a note. When I'm trying to get my sister to be brave, I tell her to not let herself become our father; cowardly and disloyal.
But we've moved on plenty
Oh my god, after like a month of ART BLOCK my mind is finally starting to cooperate with my hand again.
THANK DA LORD
During this time of having literally no inspiration or will to draw, I realized that without my mediocre art fetish I'd be a sad sack of nothing.
Literally, there is nothing else in this world to preoccupy my time. Sure, I write shit, but how do you even make moneys out of that.
DISNEY DUS NOT HYRE MEDIOCRE WRITAHS NO
they want unoriginal losers like me who will go without sleep to finish the storyboard for their movie or bring the big wigs coffee and donuts.
~fyeahplz (https://www.deviantart.com/fyeahplz)
I'm not even making sense anymore.
Anyway I d
Starting to really like watercolors. Painted an octopus for Hiede. School is hard. Four day weekend. Hunger Games midnight premiere tomorrow night. Friend is breaking up with his girlfriend. Going to the movie with both of them. Can't explain my feelings anymore.
Feeling overloaded. Feeling empty. Still not feeling 'right'.
Feeling ugly. Feeling like a teenage girl. Feeling fat. Need to lose weight. Need new characters. New music. New clothes. Need to get into a sport. Need to learn how to paint better. Need to regain my creativity.
Need to breathe
I'm not really that happy.
But hey, it's cool to have 100 of something, right?
~fyeahplz (https://www.deviantart.com/fyeahplz)
I am just, wow, taking a long time on these SAI drawings. Because all I do on weekends, is sleep.
I kind of wish I would come out with some art that isn't so branded.
I mean, you know. Not so...
I DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW TO EXPLAIN.
Anyway I'm trying to keep my grade up in math (FIRST "A" IN MATH EVER) and raise my grade in WRITING. (First "F" in Writing :U)
So I have literally no spark of inspiration during school days.
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Lol memes, why do you please me so.
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